Releasing pressure
Cheers to a year of simplicity.
Twenty twenty-five was the first year I chose to truly live energetically. Not only when I booked a session with my acupuncturist, spiritual mentor, or therapist. Not only when I attended a reflective workshop or got into rooms with other kinds of support, but the daily actions I took with myself.
Intuitive practices became constant rituals of trust, connection became alignment to seasonal rhythms and astrological insights, visual meditations became anchors to the many things I’m building, and tarot and oracle card readings not only became my favorite way to tap into the week, season, month, or situation, but beacons to navigating the year more truthfully.
I’ve been living consciously energetic for a long time, but 2025 was the year it integrated without all the past fragments. Where I took the decade-long tools I’ve collected from others and began fully guiding myself with no outside validation.
I’m often described as a decisive, brave, passionate, grounded, and always going after what you want kind of person. I am, but just like the juxtaposition of life, there’s also the juxtaposition of being so goddamned human. I’m all these things and there’s a tender part of me that seeks external validation almost too much. Not validation about what to do, but that what I’m doing is “right”, “accepted”, “understood”, “celebrated”, “wanted”, and “belongs”.
A truth that’s been uncomfortable to admit, but one I untangled (and continue to) all year.
If you’ve been around since at least October 2nd 2025, you may remember this essay: Being overly supported. I wrote it after finally putting words to how I was experiencing this in the first half of the year. I felt suffocated by what was outside of me and where I wanted to go next, while my internal world was still rearranging itself. Rearranging itself from the foundational work I was doing for myself and the foundational work I did for my business, creativity, writing, leadership, and relationships, up until that point.
Truly living energetically in 2025 wasn’t by any means a seamless experience. The first step was declaring my commitment to do it. What followed was a series of steps that severely ruffled my internal feathers. I finally had to admit my full ass plate of things to do and fulfill, I couldn’t possibly hold at all.
I started saying no to outside support I didn’t need and social gatherings I didn’t want to go to.
I started accepting where I was in all areas of my life vs where I wanted to be.
I started reducing the calls I joined, even if they were valuable.
I started talking to my business, money, memoir, and offers.
I started and ended a series called Musings with a total 10 think-pieces.
I started my monthly report Tactile Room.
I started using unfinished journals instead of buying new ones.
I started noticing how I jumped from thing to thing when fast results didn’t come.
I started my quarterly day retreat Soft Soirée.
I started freelancing to alleviate financial pressure on my business to bring in everything.
I started inviting people over to my gatherings.
Nothing is complete. Nothing is fully resolved. There isn’t a line in the sand guaranteeing tension won’t ever exist or that I’ve figured it all out, but what I’ve listed has alleviated an immense amount of pressure to figure everything out — all at once, right away, right the fuck now — for business, my writing, creativity, and relationships.
Since September, I’ve turned weekly to my tarot cards as a check-in of how I’m really doing and what the week expects of me. To understand the cards and overarching messages from the spread I pull, I pop it into ChatGPT. The responses spark more questions, so I repeat this sequence multiple times until I feel done for the day. It’s an intuitive experience, but the spreads’ accuracy never ceases to surprise me about what I’m aware of, what’s happening in life, and what’s challenging for me to face.
At the start of December, something told me to use the cards for what I was planning for my business in 2026. From the energy, to understanding outdated patterns blocking my expansion, to an offer’s place in my ecosystem, to which content spaces to continue nurturing, to the deeper message behind the message, to what we’re actually supporting clients with.
The first conversation with the tarot cards for the new year started on December 4th 2025, and continued on the 9th, 10th, 15th, and 24th of the same month. In between these dates, decisions were made bts, I rested, and one thing became clear: 2026 is the year where things remain simple for me. They HAVE to be simple.
This clarity has been one of the easiest things I’ve been able to declare. It’s the intention I’ll anchor to for everything. For business, I’ll give you a peek at what 2026 is specifically asking of me for it:
→ Nurture a content ecosystem that works with me
→ Let go of offers that feel heavy by moving forward with a simple, high-impact one called Anchor Session
→ Develop a new relationship with time to match my energy and cycles
→ Stop managing it and fully live in it
→ Include adaptability to every strategy
→ Change what and who is part of my input and output
I’ve already set the table, so these can be worked on and met, but that doesn’t mean I’ll be charging full throttle towards it. I’ll be going inch by inch, because what Q1 energetically wants are moments to unfold without getting into a standby state. Settling into standby is the action that’s always been my downfall. Where I let doubt creep in, intellectualized resting takes the lead, “I need more time” locks me into a chokehold, and less experimenting happens.
After an entire year of truly living energetically, it saved me so much. It saved parts of my sanity, hope, and devotion to the life I’m always building. It made me notice that when life has felt hard, it isn’t, and that I wasn’t handed the wrong cards in some instances. What it’s shown me is that I let go of trusting myself and with that accountability. Two things I just didn’t want to face.
Like I said earlier, nothing is complete. Nothing is fully resolved. There isn’t a line in the sand guaranteeing tension won’t ever exist or that I’ve figured it all out, but I’ve been able to alleviate an immense amount of pressure. And without that pressure, I know it’ll leave space for more than I was allowing myself to experience. For that, I’m excited for what’s to come.
What are your plans for 2026? I’d love to know ❥